today was... weird? i just really want to be there for everyone i can... i guess i just get frustrated when i care about someone and i don't like to see them hurting. idk, sometimes i feel like i'm running and being pulled in all directions. i'm running after things and when i get there they push me away and i'm slipping away from others and i try to help but maybe i'm just the one who needs help in the end. i think way too much. i've been having a lot of good days lately, i just think way too much. that's why i don't get sleep. it's because when i go to bed is the only time where i don't have to try and keep my attention on one person, or do the dishes or make sure i'm pleasing my parents. when i go to bed, it's my time. which isn't good because i just end up thinking things over too much and only confusing myself more. it doesn't help that my whole family and i are like sick... my dad has something with his heart/blood pressure. and my sister was like, sh whatever. it's not like life sucks. it's actually pretty good right now. i'm just... all over the place i guess. <3 oh btw, i finally got a myspace, so add me ---> http://www.myspace.com/ladeedahitssarah | 
